Hopes and Fears

She’s a pendulum,

Swaying between my hopes and fears.

She’s my dreams and nightmares,

An illusion I have fallen for.

She’s a parasite,

Surviving on my deepest pain.

She’s a distant mirage, a vicious joke,

A desert storm withering me inside.

She is a black hole,

Swallowing my heart and soul.

She is my illness, she is my cure,

A cancer that’s growing deep down.

For she’s a woman.

She’s entitled to hurt.

She is my drug, my desperation,

A light that’ll lead me home.